kenapakah..?
2006-03-16 at 9:02 a.m.
Assalamualaikum wbr
Oh well, aku agak cibuk ngun assignment, SERIOUSLY. Im not joking when i put BUSY sign kat YM. Hehe! Tapi kat rumah sebenarnya busy edit video, NANTIKAN. Cewah! Kat rumah x sempat nak buat. Lepas pukul 10 br leh buat kerja. Aman ckt idop masa tu. Cewah!
Report 2 minggu masih x siap lg. Aku rasa cam serabot gile. Huhuhu~ never mindlah. Spatutnya kena anto semalam, tapi aku x siap!! Ades. Mr M pon dah mintak dia punya kerja. Aku ni hah bengang, sbb br buat ckit kerja dia. Aiyoo.. k2. Aku sebnanya ada tulis, tp dalam MW.
Tadi dalam kereta terpk satu benda.
Kenapakah ASAL kepada IBADAH adalah HARAM?
Kenapakah ASAL kepada ADAT adalah HARUS?
Hehe! Nie soklan dalam kertas yg UQS bg arie tu. Aku igt pasal aku SALAH. Wakakaka! Aku rasa aku masih tak tahu makna ASAL tapi aku boleh faham kot. Mcm TAQWIL kot. Tapi lain ckit, ASAL menyeluruh ckit. TAQWIL ni utk ADAT. Erkk.. mcm gitulah. Korg konfius, takpe. Satu hari nnt korang belajar. Tambah ckit, IBADAH adalah sesuatu yg tetap dan tak boleh di perdebatkan. ADAT adalah sesuatu yang perlu di perbincangkan sesuai dengan keadaan. Kemungkinan jawapan kepada 2 persoalan di atas.
Masih lagi sedeyh mengenangkan peristiwa 'SEJARAH UHUD BERULANG'.
Entri 2 hari.
Assalamualaikum wbr
[15.12pm – 14/03/06]
Td terdengar org ckp ‘good girl’. Pehtu aku teringat kat kawan. Haha! Sbb dia jer yg saloo cakap ‘good girl’ kat aku, kalau tak silaplah. Ke org lain ek. Hehe! Entahlah, buangkan, buangkan. Taknak ingat, taknak. Nnt leka pulak. 2/3 hari ni mmg asek teringat, tp xdelah ASYIK jer. Maksud aku, TERingat sekejap2 jerla. Hehe! Tp tak kesa pon. Sbb aku risau pasal my cousin. Mmg nak emel ustaz mintak tolong, tp aku pk ustaz nak tolong camne? Aku tak boleh mintak tolong org lain sbb aku taknak dia terus lupa yg dia ada Allah. Aku cuma harap Tuhan lembutkan hati dia untuk berubah jadi lebih baik.
Aku tak rasa mudah. Tp aku tak rasa susah juga. Selagi ada usaha, selagi tu segala apa yg mustahil akan nampak mudah. Tuhan tak bebankan kita di luar kemampuan kita, tapi kita pasti berkemampuan mengatasinya CUMA bagaimana kita atasinya.
Assalamualaikum wbr
[9.11am – 15/03/06]
Hepi besday HANI.
Semalam chat ngun kawan, for a few minutes. I guess Tuhan ‘makbulkan’.
You guys should listen to this music. TAPI, I’ve Seen nie ala2 rap jugaklah. BUT, Look Into My Eyes nie tak rap kot. Ke ade gax? Kalau adapun tak banyak kot. Ke banyak gax? Haha! Aihh.. yg penting lagu2 diorg ni mmg rap pon. Kalau taknak rap dengalah lagu Aishah, tak pon Sakeenah. Ekeke!
I’ve Seen (feat. Sami Yusuf) - Outlandish
album: Closer Than Veins (2005)
Sami Yusuf (chorus)
I wish you were here
here next to me
Im missing you so… so desperately
But lately I feel like you feel
and I see what I see how Im missing you..
Waqas :
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
(chorus)
You used to inspire others with your way of thinking and speech
People came from afar just to hear us teach
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
Greatness was known but now can you tell
Mosques are empty, refrigerators are stocked
We lost our deen, we feel secure because our mansions are locked
In my teen years salat really wasnt that tight
Now i gotta pray each one of them twice.
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
Greatness was known but now can you tell
Brother we prefer light skinned women
while righteously maintain our deen against raicism (and tribalism)…
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
Greatness was known but now can you tell
can you
(chorus)
Isam:
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
Greatness was known but now can you tell
Kids in Africa starving cant afford to cry
I’ll pay the bank interest on a car I cant afford to buy
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
Greatness was known but now can you tell
We used to smile at each other with faces full of light
Now we frown on each other, we bicker, and we fight
Pops in the mosque praying,
kids in the streets haitin
kids on the corner selling pot and in the mosque preaching…
What happend to the Ummah once known so well?
Greatness was known but now can you tell
The Quran has left our hearts - stranded hanging on our walls
6,232 verses so strong
9 out of 10 of us cant even read it or write
1924 seems distand like way before Christ
(chorus)
Lenny:
que le paso a la masa como puede ser
la grandesa conosida no la puedo ber
he bisto como mi figura cahe en tentation
al pesar que la vida ha esido buena con luce e ilusion
he bebido! perdon por mis pecados
tengo la cruce sobre mi cama
e il diablo a mi lado
que le paso a la masa como puede ser
la bellesa conosida no la puedo ber
e sentido incompetentia buscando la verdad
todos disen conoserla solo beo la maldad
que le paso a la masa como puede ser
la puressa conosida no la puedo ber
>> translation: <<
what happened to the uma how can that be?
the greatness known once i can’t see it no more
i have seen my eyes falling in temptation
although life has given me light and ilussions
i have drinked!forgiveness for my sins
i have the cross on the wall over my bed
and the devil at my side
what happened to the uma how can that be?
the beauty i known i can’t see it no more
i have felt the incompetence in my way to truth
everybody pretends to know it, but all i see is evil
what happened to the uma how can that be?
the purity i known i can’t see it no more
Isam:
If I was to fall on my knees and ask you to forgive everything and anyone out of love for the one… oh oh oh
I’ve seen..
And if you were to fall on your knees and ask me the same but I dont even think about it…,
lets just break out of the darkness of ignorance.
(chorus)X2
Lagu nie arie tu ada dapat videonya. Diorg buat pementasan dekat Denmark. Best gaxlah, sbb budak2 nie berlakun.
Look Into My Eyes - Outlandish
album: Closer Than Veins (2005)
Look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
You don't see a damn thing
'cause you can't relate to me
You're blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to you
I'm the persecuted one
You're the red, white and blue
Each day you wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thanking God He let me rise
You worry about your education
And the bills you have to pay
I worry about my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day
Your biggest fear is getting a ticket
As you cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that has just left
Will turn around and come back
Yet, do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind?
Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...
Ooohh, let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters
See I've known terror for quite some time
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the checkpoint on my way to school
Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother
The bulldozers and the tanks
The gases and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds
You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
And I'm the terrorist?
Yet, do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind?
Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...
Ooohh, let's not cry tonight, I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
America, do you realize that the taxes that you pay
Feed the forces that traumatize my every living day
So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait
(pause)
Yet, do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind?
Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...
Ooohh, let's not cry tonight, I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ohh let's not cry tonight I promise you one day is through
Ohh my brothers! Ohh my sisters!
Ooh shine a light for every Soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers! Ohh my sisters!
Korang sure dah penah denga lagu Try Not To Cry kan? Aku sebenarnya tak denga betol2 lagi. Hehe! Denga gitu2 je tanpa tgk lirik, so tak bestlah sbb tak hayati pon. Lagu tu Outlandish nyanyi gax KOT bersama2 dengan Sami Yusuf, Bara Kherigi & Omar Shah. Hikss.. pulak aku nie. Sejak bila ntah denga lagu2 ni. Takde, sebenarnya arie tu saja2 cuba try cari kat LimeWyer skali tu terjumpa lah. Asalnya aku nak cari lagu Look Into My Eyes, sekali tu dah dpt banyak2 aku dengar jerlah semua. Hari tu lagu Native Deen pon dapat gax. Lagu Zain Bhikha jer tak carik lagi. Dengan Yusuf Islam, ada gax try cr kat torrent, takderk. Lagu The Hijab tu Dwud nyanyi rupanya. Nak cari lagu yg dak2 kecik tu nyanyi, serius chumel. Tapi tatau nama kumpulan dan tatau nama tajuk lagunya. Haha!
Hari tu kat Manchester, seronok. Hehe! Masa solat last sekali dekat medina mosque tu, aku dah siap dah. Pehtu duduk tepi tgk orang2 sembahyang. Masa tu kan, aku senyum sendiri. Entahlah, aku rasa seronok bila tgk org sembahyang. Rasa macam ukhuwah tu lagi kuat bila berada dalam satu saf di ketuai oleh seorg iman. Ermm.. umpamakan kita nak pergi berperangkan. Seorg akan pegang panji Islam supaya tak jatuh menyembah tanah, bila seorg syahid, org lain akan menyambut panji tersebut. Macam solat gax, satu jemaah habis, satu jemaah lain akan di bentuk, panji tu di sambut oleh imam yang baru. Kalimah syahadah tu takkan putus di sebut dalam solat dan sebenarnya kalimah Allah itu tak pernah terhenti di sebut2 oleh hambaNya di atas muka bumi ni.
Sebenarnya teringat plak hari tu baca entry kak atie pasal kenapa bumi nie bulat. Betul arh apa yg lecture dia cakap. Setiap saat, bumi nie berputar dan berubah waktu, maka setiap saat juga laungan azan tak pernah terhenti di atas muka bumi ni. Which mean, sekarang nie pagi kat cnie, mungkin negara lain tengah zohor, azan berkumandang lagi, tempat lain pulak asar, masih berkumandang. Bumi beredar ckit2 dan kat cnie bertuka ke zohor, skali lagi kedengaran azan, tempat lain plak mungkin tengah maghrib, denga lagi azan. Maknanya, takkan putus laungan azan tu selagi kiamat tak ‘menyerang’ penduduk bumi ini. Subhanallah, Masya Allah Maha suci Kau yang sempurna mencipta langit dan bumi.
Alhamdulillah, aku rasa seronok jugak. Walaupun aku ni main kawan je ngun sesapa. Kadang2 aku sendiri tatau nama akak tu, tp main cakap jer. Haha! Kadang tu aku rasa cam tak elok bersikap diam diri sbb kita tak kenal dia, so kita cam taknak cakap apa2 ngun dia. Pernah je rasa mcm tu kan. Kalau bleyh gie memane taknaklah duduk ngun org sama jer kan. Aku bukannya nak kata aku nie mcm kacang lupakan kulit, dah ada kawan baru lupa kawan lama. Tapi lebeyh kepada explore semua org. Cuba tak stick kat menda2 lama, cuba stick ngun menda2 baru kan. Sesungguhnya, takda sorg pon yg agak rapat dengan aku, biarlah ukhuwah tu berkembang dan talinya tak terikat pada sorang.
[12.22pm]
Loceng berbunyi kejap lagi. Masalah, orang ada masalah. Hurmmm.. kalaulah aku pun ada masalah. Bukan aku tak ada, cuma aku kadang rasa masalah aku not making any sense to myself. Lepastu takde faedah kalau aku fikirkan banyak2. Maybe kalau pk2 balek pon sure important gax untuk kebaikan aku, tapi cam malas jer. Lagipun, aku nie kan memang cam ginih kan. Sometimes you have to run away although the problem will catch u one day. But, just be patient for everything happen. Kita tak mintak pon masalah tu datang, sedangkan kita adalah punca masalahnya. Tapi, it does not matter who the causes of the problem. Yang penting, learn from your mistake.