wut a life
2006-04-05 at 12:01 p.m.
Assalamualaikum wbr
Oh well, updet again. Look forward to change the blog. I think my account is crowded now. Sigh. Archive x ckp place nak letak dah. Ades. Banyak sangat dong. SO, i betta change blog. I mean, yeah change as the whole thing? Erk.. of coz not gonna struggle to make a new layout. Haha! I'm not good though. Oh well, just use the present already made by people. Maybe change to blogspot? Masa memula dulow pasang niat, every yr nak tuka host. Tapi x jadik2 sbb lupa kot. Dunnola. Hurmm.. guess dis time need to make as simple as i can.
Ape2 pon, 2day agak tired. Hurmm.. weirdo. I was a bit upset with ma fren. Last night she said sumthing yg menggores perasaanku. Jadi aku terpakse off kan MSN ku. Betta larikan diri b4 aku sembor balek. Sigh. Shudnt take it seriusly, but not fes time tho. So, become sensitif kot? Maybe dats y today i act strange? Hurmm.. oh yeah. Hurmm.. smalam pun sama. Oklah, i admit. Sumtimes i cant be bothered pretending to be AS GOOD AS I CAN which mean in front of people u need to control AYU? Oh wutta heck. Aku mencangkung depan diorg, angin kuat, aku xleh duk atas kusi. SEJOK. And diorg duk ckp memcm, jgn duk cmtulah. Hurmm.. i guess they dun want to admit me as a fren if sum1 laughed or sumthin? Aiyaa.. i actually not cangkung laa. Hurmm.. aku duduk atas feet aku? Erkk.. bukan.. tumit aku? Erkk.. how can i explain dis? Never mind.
Hurmm.. so they talking sumthin2.. and i just hate it very much. So, i just said sumthing to them which i think i wasnt dat cheerful afterwards. Hurmm.. okla sumtimes i did sumthing weird thing dat people might think U WEIRDO? Hurmm.. doesnt matter what peeps said. I just dun care. As long as i am myself and its not effct other peeps, so what? Aihh.. i think i need kwn yg slumber cam eisya dulow kot? Or isya? Or sesiapa yang doesnt care what peeps say about us after all.
Today je ive done 2 sajakS. Haha! A bit shocked gax. Erkk.. well i was doing the sajak dalam kelas Mr S. Huhuhu~ dunno y. I think maybe sumthing gone wrng in my mind. Got 3 missed call from kawan and once from akak. And dat was so depressing. U doing ur work so concentrate and yet sum1 MISSED call u many times and its getting annoying. Plus, im in library which i might be in trouble if miss heard the phone. Haha! Masa tu dahla she was JUST next to me. A bit gelabah. What if she took my phone? Gosh, must be hard man. Haha! Im in trouble dat time, believe me. But hey, i dun think dats what will happen actually. Just made it up. Never mind.
I actually did sajak about how LELAKI thinks about JELITAWAN. Hurmm.. i dun really know LELAKI's thought when they saw gurl with SEKSI cloth but u know just use my imagination. So, kalau nak baca u betta get antalogi GKLN bulan julai nnt. Tu pon if the sajak not rejected laa. If so, i might post it here. Hehe! Lagi satu pasal ape ek? Hurmm.. oh yer. Lagi satu about my imagination as well. All my sajak become weird now. Erkk.. i think i probably gone insane lately. Lagi satu pasal how pity dis gurl coz she got bullied by english student at her school bcoz she's a muslim gurl. Hurmm.. so dats it. Hurmm.. some of the sentences may not give u a detail how they exactly bulying << is dat how u mean to spell it? Haha! HER. So, use ur imagination to express the feeling.
So, KAY is not well. Hope he's orait soon. Remember my PESANAN bro? Hehe! Banyak2 rehat ye. Painful alwiz getting there, but this painful might different bcoz u can SEE it. The other PAINFUL is more PAIN than this one i guess. U dun know hw to control it coz u dun even know whats the pain causes? Dats da contrast. Erkk.. what am i moning now. Sigh. GET WELL SOON BRO!
Chat ngun kawan gax, for a while. And fell to slep. Erk.. not me. But dialah kan. Hurmm.. dia said sumthing about cook. How impress dia kat dis gurl coz hobi memasak and sangat bagus lam bab memasak nie bla.. bla.. N dia kata lagi gurl tu mak kpd kwn dia. Lorh.. igt sebaya ngun aku ke hape. Ceyhhh.. ade laa lg die merepek mende ntah. Hurmm.. so i said kat dia laa yang i dunno dat much lam masak2 nie. Hurmm.. n he said sumthing dat make me realize dat i shudnt be like dis. Even u study, even u do this and dat, u still needs to learn how to cook. If u rich tho, doesnt mean u dun have to cook and ask org gaji to do it. Dats horrible. Ur husband needs ur own resepi not ur org gaji idiot. Dats y i dun want org gaji maa. Aihh.. 7 thn lagi yerk.. tolak 7 thn. Hahaha!
Oh well, i dun feel dat well actually. Lately asek sakit kepala je. I dunno why n im scared to tell ma parents. hahaha! They gonna tell me to makan panadol which i cant, eh silap.. X PANDAI!! Hahaha!! I was afraid dgn ubat. Dunno arh. Selama aku sakit tak pernah aku makan ubat, tu pengakuan jujur aku. Although i adviced peeps to makan ubatla itula inila, but i didnt. Dats horrible and thoughtful i guess. Hahaha! Its getting in my head now. Hurmm..
Spring is cuming? But still arr ade windy nie geram tui. It was sunny outside, not just today, yesterday as well. But ada jugak windy n menyebabkan aku rasa cam sakit betol duk lua tu. Worse than winter lorh. Haha! Adess.. i think not dat many peeps wearing glove kat skola. But i was. I think dats da only way to reduce my cold. Lagilaa tunggu bas td. Oh yer, aku nak cite yg aku nek bas td. Hahaha! Abah takde, service kate. Oh ye, we meant to finish skool like half 3? Owh hari nie pon half 3 laa. But aku telah memulangkan diri lambat ckit. Just 2 avoid my fren catching the same bus? Oh tell me, im weird now. Why am i avoiding peeps? See.. sumtimes i was doing da wrong thing. Hurmm.. maybe i need some space. My heart saying to me dat i was so selfish and coward. Am i? Honestly.
Ok. What else? Talking with this fren. Erkk.. i cant even remember her name seriously. She was a chinese, but staying in UK about 8 yrs? Last yr she was at sheffield and dis year, erkk.. in A2 her dad has transferred to here, and here she is, in LB world. Entahlaa, just talking sum crap thing. About uni, study, malaysia, china, fren, bla.. bla.. sort of thing. Dun think its important. Boring stuff. Kept looking the time, when is the bell gonna ring? Ceyhh.. haha! Padahal budak tu masih duk ckp2 lg. Ngee..
Well.. 5 days to go. TAK SABAR. But im gonna mish my fren. Erkk.. my so-called CYBER FREN. 2 weeks without computer, must be pecah rekod for me. Hahaha! Maybe i need to bring my coursework along coz i got loads to catch up. Stressed up now. Huhuhu~ but doesnt matter laa. Hope i can cope after easter. I know, its not dat tiny pieces of work, but it messive. Erkk.. okieh dun want to talk about coursework. We so excited about spain now. I was asking mum how many cloth we meant to bring coz we gonna stay there like 12 days and how can we bring 12 cloth along with us? Haha! And she said am crazy. U not gonna bring 12 tops and 12 skirt/trousers?
Ngeee.. i was burst to laugh. Hehe! So i decided to wear jubah instead of having tops and trousers. Jimat space and lagi nampak manis pakai jubah kot. Huhuhu~~ i love jubah PLAIN ones not renda2 ones ye. Hehe! So i might bring 2 jubah and 1 maxi. Its like jubah but its not, coz it hasnt got a sleeve and beside, it is so pretty wearing at home. But i cant, shy laa. My brothers kalo nampak, tak beshlaa. Hahaha! So, aku akan bawak beberapa tops and kain and seluar. Huhuhu~ hopefully ade mesin basuh kat sana. Mak kata the problem is, TAK PAHAM BAHASA KAT MESIN BASUH TU. Hahaha! Aku gelak jer when mum told me da story when she fes time went to paris. She doesnt know how to use the mesin basuh and its end up with wasting money without washing her cloths. Pity her, but sweet mummy. Love my mum.
Oh yer, mum is STUDYING spanish. So funny. I cant and i might not after all. Hahaha! Why so bothered. Just leave it dat y. Survival. LOL.
Ok, dats all for now. Maybe will updeting 2moro. Erkk.. i think need to updet saloo. Hahaha! So am not gonna mish my blog laa. Well, i need to bring my log book. So can write my diary in the book. I used to have one, but it finished. And i end up with writing in TEST PAD, and finally i stucked in this online diary. Wut a life. Pen OFF.